This is why I blog.

It’s been four years since I stumbled upon this world of blogging.

I went online looking for coupons.

Yup, that girl in front of you in line? That was me four years ago.

 

I was hell bent on checking out at the grocery store and only having to fork over five bucks for $600 worth of groceries.

That never happened, but I did score loads of free deodorant and toothpaste. And shampoo. Shampoo was always a good one!

 

I didn’t find the secret to free groceries, but I did find Blogger

 

I quickly fell in love with the community of people that were hidden behind the screen. Real people sharing real stories. I found it inspiring and intriguing. 

There was a whole world online and I was hooked. 

 

Instead of coupons, I found my voice. 

 

A passion I had for writing as a young girl became something real in my life as a woman, wife, and mother.

I began pounding the keyboard with words that begged to escape and hit publish on things that made my palms sweat to share, and it felt good. 

I’ll never forget the first time I wrote something I was afraid to say. It was this post. I linked up with Shell from Things I Can’t Say for Pour Your Heart Out.

After I hit publish, the comments starting coming, and I cried. 

Like a baby. 

 

That was the day I knew I would never stop writing. 

It wasn’t so much about what I wrote, but how writing felt. 

 

It felt amazing. 

It felt like breathing. 

It felt good to get something out! 

 

Maybe my writing will never make it passed this tiny little space I have here in the blog world?

Maybe it will never see the inside of a published book?

Maybe I’ll never get picked up by Huffington Post or be listed on The Babble 100 like thousands of other bloggers I look up to and admire, but I will always have the one thing that blogging has already given me. 

You. 

 

Hidden behind the screen were friendships that I had no idea could even exist, but they were there and they were real.  

Over the past four years I’ve met some amazing people online.

I’ve built friendships with women I’ve never had the chance to hug in real life (yet!), walked with some of you through life’s battles, and rejoiced in so many of your victories! 

 

Many of those stories pulled me in through Pour Your Heart Out

If it wasn’t for Shell and Pour Your Heart Out I would have never had the place to share the things I felt like I was scared to say.

Her meme was like free therapy every Wednesday! 

 

This blogging journey has twisted and turned into something else since then.  

I still love it! 

But, it’s different. 

The simplicity of community is harder to grasp. 

People don’t read and comment like they used to. 

There’s more social media that goes along with the job of blogging. What used to be reading and commenting on other blogs has morphed into pinning, plus one-ing, sharing, tweeting, and oh my goodness I need a nap. 

Some days I get caught up in the work that blogging can be and forget that it doesn’t matter is this blog ever grows anymore than it already has. 

 

I would be happy in this space if it never changed because when it comes down to it, I blog because this is my space to breathe.

 

 Everything else? Eh. 

I blog because:::

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY FIRST BLOG FRIEND EVER, SHELL!

Thanks for letting us pour our hearts out! 

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  1. says

    I love this. I love that you have found your breath through blogging and thank goodness for Shell. I think PYHO also gave me the courage to write things that I was afraid to express. There is a lot of work involved in blogging and I have to admit I’m kind of overwhelmed with it right now (and I need a nap too!!). But this reminds me why I blog too.
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    • says

      Me too, Christine. My focus is my family and seeking God’s guidance right now in so many areas of life outside of this space that I don’t get to make the time for it that I’d like or that I feel is needed to keep up with the changing trends.

  2. says

    I love this post . I feel the same way about my blog. It may never get picked up or go viral but it’s mine and I’ve made friends here online. I just wrote a post about the same thing when I hit 3 years of blogging.
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    • says

      Exactly! I don’t want to give up on some of the goals and dreams I have that have grown out of this space, but I don’t want to be discouraged when those things don’t fall in my lap. I still love the space for what it was four years ago and I hope I always do.

  3. says

    It’s so true-blogging is like therapy and just the fact that one or two people might read something you post is the most amazing part of it all. I hear ya on the social media piece. I’m new to the game so it will always be part of my blogging experience but I can imagine that writing before was much more fun!
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  4. says

    In total agreement. It started out as an easy journal with pictures. Today it is definitely therapy as well as ministry. I love your blog and you too.

  5. says

    Agreed! I read and comment on blogs I enjoy and feel the person is worth getting to know – not to gain readership. It’s a great world and it’s definitely great to have a place you can breath. :) It’s an inexpensive (because we still come out of pocket for our blogs) form of therapy that is worth every effort. Happy anniversary to your first blog friend! :) Have a great one Adrienne! -Iva
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    • says

      I’m so glad this made you smile! I smiled while writing it just thinking about how long it’s been. I’m so blessed to have you on my list of friends I’ve met on this journey. Thanks for giving us all a great place to share our stories over the years!

  6. says

    oh I love this. I love this because I feel the same way. Maybe I’ll never be published or picked up by huffington post but I will write and I will do it because I have dedicated readers and I love it.
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    • says

      I love it too, Leighann. I forget sometimes *why*, and when all the distractions are gone, I still love the connections and the space to write. Even if only one person reads and relates, it’s served a purpose.

  7. says

    I love you Adrienne. Have from the start… and I adore the breath you breathe!! I kept thinking of my post over at Shell’s last Friday called “Writer’s Breath”- when I read this post of yours.

    I love Shell’s pour your heart out- the message and the beautiful place to share.

    Keep writing. Oh, and I so agree- everything gets blurry and complicated and overwhelming. It takes so much effort and energy to stay ‘in’ this ‘game’.

    But we write because we must. And the connections are TRUE and REAL and WORTHY of this blogging world we will continue to navigate and hold on to with our hearts….
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  8. says

    I have been meaning to visit and comment on this post. I was hoping to find confirmation of how I’ve been feeling lately. Confirmation that blogging is awesome. But also a whirlwhind at times with all the tweeting/sharing/self-promotion/book plugging etc. I’m so happy that you’ve found the silver lining or the root of happiness in blogging. I admit it made me feel comforted that you find the other stuff, well, if not bad, just different and changing. I sense that, too, and I’m not sure how I feel about it just yet.

    As always, your writing is lovely and pure! Thanks for sharing your gift.
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    • says

      I hear ya, Katy. I’ve recognized that it’s just not blogging/social media that’s changing, but we’re changing. I mean, let’s hope we are, anyway! For me it’s been four years. Of course life is different now. Homeschooling has changed for us since then, home, family, life, all of it looks different than it did 4 years ago and I think in many ways social media and blogging reflect those changes in all of our lives. It’s an information overload online and sometimes we just need to unplug and focus on what’s right in front of us. Our families, children, jobs, ministries, etc. There’s so many other things that pull at us outside of bloggging, and we have to be willing to *be* pulled in other directions. Does any of that make sense? I’m just rambling away…all of that to say, I hear ya. I do!

  9. says

    Yes! Oh I feel exactly the same. I head to Shell’s place whenever I have something tough to say because I know my people are there. It’s such an amazingly wonderful thing.
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  10. says

    I really love this post! Sometimes, I get distracted, and easily discouraged when I blog, because the space has changed. I have been blogging since 2009 and I started it “seriously” (read: consistently) back in 2011, and I noticed that the space has changed dramatically.

    I have to keep reminding myself on why i do what I do. I want to share a piece of myself out there with people. And it’s okay if I never get picked up by a newsgroup, it’s okay. I want to make the connections, I want to read great blogs, I want it to be about the community–and not so much about how many followers I have, and how many shares I get, and all that jazz.
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    • says

      I love the community that I’ve found here online. Do I still want my writing to be somewhere? Absolutely! But, when it all comes down to it, I’m happy if just one person can relate to a story I share. Glad you enjoyed the post, Kalley!