When you’re trying to grow your blog, you have those days when you question yourself. Today is definitely one of those days for me.
I’m questioning what the heck I’m really doing here. I think about where I want to be and look at where I’m at, and I wonder if I’m doing the right thing.
Will we all look back at blogging one day like we look back at Hammer Pants?
I can see it now. Mom bloggers will be one of topics on VH1′s I love the 2010′s.
Whenever those episodes come on TV everyone at our house will point and laugh at us.
It could totally happen.
I think one of the problems I have is that I’ve never really been able to establish myself under any one niche. I homeschool, but I’m not one of those moms. I’m a christian, but I write about everything, not just my faith. I’m a mom, but I’m also a wife, friend, sister, and woman. I have a son who has some special needs, but I get tired of writing about that too, because he’s more than a label, and sometimes I want a break from focusing on that.
For the most part I liked that about me. I have never been able to define myself with a tagline, so I quit trying. But, I wonder if that hurts me as a blogger?
Would it be easier for me to build my blog if it was more clearly defined?
I’m beginning to see that it’s difficult to build a blog brand centered around me writing about whatever the heck I want to, whenever the heck I want. But, that’s the nature of my writing. I write about life. Everything under the sun affects my writing. My mood, my interests, my day, the direction the wind blows…
So, is that a winning blog strategy? Probably not.
Every once in a while I get a new “like” or a new reader stumbles upon me, and I get all excited. Because, I cherish each and every one of you. And I love each new face that comes by! But, the truth is there aren’t that many new faces each day. I don’t really grow all that much, and things just sort of stay the same.
So I do what can to read posts about improving this or that. I’ve even taken courses to help me with content and building blog community.
I try to get myself out there by submitting guest posts for other sites. Often times for free, because I just hope to gain some exposure for the blog and enjoy meeting new people.
I try to visit others, but I can never get to everyone. I try to respond to each comment, but I miss some. Because, I run out of time.
I try to do this thing, but I wonder if its all worth it.
Is this blog dream worth the time I spend away from my family?
In some ways, I’m doing this for my family. I’ve been paid enough for things here and there that my boys know that blogging does bring in a little pocket change every now and then. So, that helps, but it doesn’t make it easy to brush my kids off so I can write sponsored content, or try to make the time to turn my notes into a useful blog post. I don’t get paid for things enough that my time in the blog world is respected as “working”. Most of time it just seems like I’m on the computer a lot.
There are things I do outside of this blog that take time. I believe that community involvement is an important part of building your blog, and I love meeting new people. But it takes time to be a part of things elsewhere.
How about social media? I struggle to keep up with the Jones’, and I probably end up doing a mediocre job. Because, it takes time.
There are things I want to do that I don’t ever get to, like submitting my writing to more places or finding a blog sponsor to work with. Who knew? That takes time.
I find myself questioning my priorities, and I don’t like that. Whenever I feel like I’ve gotten of track I know what I need to do.
I need to spend some time with my Heavenly Father in prayer and in The Word.
There’s got to be a way to do it all.
I just wish I knew how.
It’s my dream to find something that allows me to write professionally. I’d love to find a regular freelance opportunity or submit my work to magazines. If this blog can be a stepping stone in the process than that is awesome! I just hope that’s what it is.