She looked at the envelope sitting on the end table.
She couldn’t do it. Not without him.
“I can’t believe you’re not going to open it!”
She listened to her best friend become more and more annoyed with her. She wasn’t opening the letter. Period. No amount of begging or pleading was going to change her mind. She just couldn’t do it alone.
It actually wasn’t that hard to resist. A big part of her didn’t even want to open the stupid letter.
“I have to go. I’ll call you later.”, and she hung up.
The thought that one piece of paper held the answer to a question that had put her life on hold made her angry.
How could the last year be defined with a single piece of paper? How could everything she had been through be summed up inside of one envelope?
How could this letter give her what she wanted?
The truth was, she knew it couldn’t.
Inside the envelope she would find certainty.
Certainty.
It was something she hadn’t had in so long, she wasn’t even sure if she was ready for it. She wasn’t sure if she even remembered what it felt like, or what it meant.
All of the wishing, praying, and fantasizing was going to be made real. One way or the other. It was easy to let it sit there on the end table. As long as the letter remained sealed, she could still hope.
She could still hope that being with the man she loved wasn’t going to be complicated.
She could still hope that her son would have the father he deserved.
She could still hope that all of the memories they had made in last 6 months weren’t going to be erased.
She could still hope that this fantasy she was living might just be reality.
She could still hope that when she looked at her son and saw him that it wasn’t her heart playing tricks on her.
Even though it was easy to leave the envelope sitting there, she wished he was home. When she talked to him on the phone a few hours before, she told him the letter had arrived. When she told him she wasn’t opening it he didn’t persist. It was as if he was hanging onto the uncertainty too.
After all, it was all they had ever known. What was it going to be like once they had answers?
It was too much to think about.
They talked for little while about his trip. He told her about the mountains and weather. He was having a great time, and she was glad.
He would be back in three days.
Until then the results to the DNA test remained sealed.
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You can read this series in order below.
#1 Exhale
#2 Rehab
#3 Lost
#4 Afraid
#5 Breathe
#6 Alone
#7 Held
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Cliff hangers! D'oh!
Oh, I'm sitting on the edge of my seat! This is awesome! I can't wait to read the rest of your series!
Okay…I am dying to know the DNA results! Like a Soap Opera…I am hooked.
Wow–I'm hooked! Who is it??
I don't think I could open it either. Sometimes uncertainty gives hope.
OH Adrienne! What a story! I see grace all over this story! Thank you so much for visiting me the other day and leaving me a link to this, I enjoyed all of them (had to go back and read…). Can't wait to read more!
Amy
So happy to see another addition in my reader – the cliff hanger is killing me!
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Oh how am I supposed to wait! I need to know. Cliff hangers kill me!!
Uncertainty sometimes makes life easier!
what a cliff hanger!
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Haha. It looks like I’m going to have to link the rest of it next week.
Juicy story and I like the way it leaves you hanging. Erin
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Thanks, Erin. I’m glad you liked it. Maybe I will link up more of it next week?
Nooooo! Cliffhanger!
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Haha. Well, I’m glad you are hanging on.
Hhhmmmm, I will have to tune in next time!!!
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Please do!
I love how this flows. It’s so engaging. I got lost in your story and now I want to know what happens!!!
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Thanks, Carrie. Maybe I’ll link up the “results” next week.
You are KILLING ME! I can’t take it. I need closure! Haha!
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Ha. Closure. Do we ever get that?
I’ll link more next week!
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What an engaging tale. You’re one talented writer, Adrienne.
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That’s a huge compliment, Thank you!
Adrienne recently posted..How can I get my child to eat healthy?
Cliffhangers are frustrating. But I still like them.
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Wow! What a story. That one envelope holds so much truth and possibility…good and bad. I hope it’s the answer she wants!
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Oh my goodness! I’m hooked and my heart goes out to you.
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Thanks, Heidi. It was a long time ago. I feel like I barely know this girl. Hence the third person. You’re the only person from Yeah Write who has mentioned they realized this is my life. It was a crazy time, but happy endings rock, even when they are packaged differently than you wanted.
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I figured it had been a part of your life/story/past. I’ve been writing my story on my blog for a while now, so I assumed you were doing the same thing when I read this. My heart still goes out to you, even if it was a long time ago.:) And I’m so, so happy to hear there is a happy ending. You’re right, happy endings do rock, even if things didn’t go quite the way you planned.
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Good story. I was so intrigued I had to go back and read what led up to it. So, next week you must link up. What’s the reveal? Nicely done! And well-written.
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You read the rest?! Thank you!! I will link up again for sure. This was so fun getting involved with Yeah Write.
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Cliffhanger, but really well written.
WG
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Thank you so much!
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Very suspenseful…
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THanks, Jay!
fantastic. definitely going to read the others, too!
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Thank you!
I’m going to return because I want to read the others, especially “Rehab.”
Well done!
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Rehab is actually one of my favorites out of the series! Thanks for reading!
What happens? I need to know these things.
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I’ll give you a clue. If you really want the spoiler…OR wait until next week and I’ll link again.
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Anxiously awaiting the ending….
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I want to know what happens!!
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Suspense!!
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Love cliffhangers!
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Thanks for reading Jackie!