I’ve been guilty of this my whole life. I was the type of student to cram for test or wait until the night before a report was due to even begin to read the book. I worked best under pressure. Or so I thought, anyway.
But, I cannot help the tugging on my heart in the last few days to embrace time.
We never know how much time we have left with a loved one.
We never know how much time we have to follow a dream.
We never know how much time we have to stop folding laundry and enjoy a moment with our children.
It seems like I’m always on the go. Constanly distracted by life.
I want to play that board game with the kids. I want to stop and look at my son’s video game-even if I could care less about it. I want to sit for a minute.
I don’t want my kids to grow up with a mom who never had time for them. What’s the point of being home with them if I’m never really present?
Being a stay-at-home mom has it’s own level of occupational hazards. We make the sacrifice (financially for some, mentally for others-or both in most cases!) to be at home with them, but we never stop to enjoy the blessing of time we have with them.
I don’t want that to happen to me.
When I first began staying home with them almost 4 years ago, I was elated. I was on top of the world. Even though the decision came at the root of unemployment-I was overjoyed! Being with the boys was something I always wanted, and I finally had it.
Then a couple years later we began to homeschool. Another dream come true!
Now, I’m here. Living something I’ve wanted forever, and yet, I feel like I’m not enjoying it.
Don’t get me wrong. I love it. In theory. But, am I really embracing the blessings of being with them? I think sometimes I take it for granted.
Now is the time to change that!
I often find myself saying things like, “Once this is done, I’ll have more time.” “Once we get moved, I’ll be able to have some quality time with them.”
But the truth is. Time never stops.
When I worked I remembered being heart broken I didn’t have enough time with the boys. I took two personal days off work (unheard of in my industry at the time!) just to spend a mommy day with my kids. One day for each of them.
First, I took my oldest to Sea World. It was a school day. I woke him up like I would any other day, and told him the news. No school today-SEA WORLD! He was on cloud 9!
I took my youngest the next day for a special day at the Zoo and Build-a-Bear. It was so fun! Just “mommy and me” days!
That was four years ago. It was the last time I did something really unexpected, spontaneous…FUN!
We need to have some fun. Just me and the boys!
I don’t want my boys to be something that gets put off until tomorrow.
The boys aren’t the only thing I’m putting off. There’s a lot I want to do. I have more to accomplish!
Now is the time!
I’m linked up today with Shell at Things I Can’t Say. Best linky out there!