Procrastination.
I’ve been guilty of this my whole life. I was the type of student to cram for test or wait until the night before a report was due to even begin to read the book. I worked best under pressure. Or so I thought, anyway.
But, I cannot help the tugging on my heart in the last few days to embrace time.
We never know how much time we have left with a loved one.
We never know how much time we have to follow a dream.
We never know how much time we have to stop folding laundry and enjoy a moment with our children.
It seems like I’m always on the go. Constanly distracted by life.
I want to play that board game with the kids. I want to stop and look at my son’s video game-even if I could care less about it. I want to sit for a minute.
I don’t want my kids to grow up with a mom who never had time for them. What’s the point of being home with them if I’m never really present?
Being a stay-at-home mom has it’s own level of occupational hazards. We make the sacrifice (financially for some, mentally for others-or both in most cases!) to be at home with them, but we never stop to enjoy the blessing of time we have with them.
I don’t want that to happen to me.
When I first began staying home with them almost 4 years ago, I was elated. I was on top of the world. Even though the decision came at the root of unemployment-I was overjoyed! Being with the boys was something I always wanted, and I finally had it.
Then a couple years later we began to homeschool. Another dream come true!
Now, I’m here. Living something I’ve wanted forever, and yet, I feel like I’m not enjoying it.
Don’t get me wrong. I love it. In theory. But, am I really embracing the blessings of being with them? I think sometimes I take it for granted.
Now is the time to change that!
I often find myself saying things like, “Once this is done, I’ll have more time.” “Once we get moved, I’ll be able to have some quality time with them.”
But the truth is. Time never stops.
When I worked I remembered being heart broken I didn’t have enough time with the boys. I took two personal days off work (unheard of in my industry at the time!) just to spend a mommy day with my kids. One day for each of them.
First, I took my oldest to Sea World. It was a school day. I woke him up like I would any other day, and told him the news. No school today-SEA WORLD! He was on cloud 9!
I took my youngest the next day for a special day at the Zoo and Build-a-Bear. It was so fun! Just “mommy and me” days!
That was four years ago. It was the last time I did something really unexpected, spontaneous…FUN!
We need to have some fun. Just me and the boys!
I don’t want my boys to be something that gets put off until tomorrow.
The boys aren’t the only thing I’m putting off. There’s a lot I want to do. I have more to accomplish!
Now is the time!
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Your thoughts on this really touch me. I feel the same way and I imagine so many mothers do. Why aren't we cherishing this life we want and have chosen? Why aren't we living joyfully every day? Why doesn't the very fact that we see each and every little smile and can comfort every hurt fill us with gratitude? I know I struggle with this too. I want to change too. I want to be a better mom.
This is such a great post, so thought provoking and honest. Thank you.
Thanks for your thoughts! I, too, don't make the most of my days at home with the boys…my thoughts are similar to yours in many ways. God, grant us the ability to live purposefully, fulfilling the calling You have on each of our lives!
You are so right. Now is the time!
I agree. We are always so goal oriented on what we want to accomplish that sometimes we forget to stop and enjoy our greatest successes! I hope you have a great time with your spontaneous Fun!!
Oh, I feel this way all the time. I have learned to let the dishes or laundry go so I can sit on the floor and play with Jellybean. We can order pizza every once in awhile so that I can actually hang out on the couch with Joey. Your boys are going to love impromptu trips the beach soon though!
I am so bad about this. There's things I want to do for ma, and my marriage, and the next thing I know, six months has gone by. I hope that you know you're an AMAZING mom (and person!) and that your boys aren't sitting around thinking you're a slacker!!!!
I definitely need to start seizing the days, as it were. I have the same kind of attitude about my boys and don't want to put off stuff we could be doing. Great post.
I think we are on the same wavelength!
LOL- I am on the other end of this- many years ago I felt the exact same way- now, with six of the kids having graduated homeschool at 12th grade and with three still to go, I find myself thinking I need to take more time with the house- it is really out of control. The seasons of life are like that- always changing. Take that time with the boys! You cannot get it back!
PS- email me- where are you moving? Still close by I hope!
A lesson we all need to learn! Good for you! I'm also bad at "eventually" or "soon" being in my thought process way too much.
Stopping by for PYHO!
So true. I think we all need a little reminder from time to time to live in the present moment as often as we can.
It's all about realizing and appreciating what we have. This is something that I've been thinking about lately too!
Now IS the time. You're right. After being home with my kids for the last four years, I was ready to be back in the workplace. Mostly because even though I was home during the day, I bartended on weeknight and both weekend nights. I'm thrilled to finally have the time to DO things with my kids. Even if doing something is curling up in bed all day for a movie marathon. At least I am with them.
Great post! I think similar things all the time. Now IS the time.
This is beyond true…always saying "I'm gonna do this tomorrow/next week/soon."
I'm gonna take a page from your book and seize TODAY!
YOu're a great Mom!
Great post! Being present is something I post a lot about and think a lot about. Somedays I'm good at it and others I fail. Thanks for the reminder again though
Wonderful post and oh, so true. Great reminder. I so wish I could be home with my boys, enjoy it to the fullest!
I have the same worries about my motherhood. I know I put too much effort into the day to day duties around the house getting done but not enough into being present with my kids and being interested in what they are interested in.